new experiences.

here we are, in the more grown-up part of life. actually you start again from zero on. there is no way you can show off with abitur or anything similar. everyone who got in is equal. so that's it. being a freshman. everything's new and you have to learn so many new things. in fact, on the one hand you feel like being very old and abitur's so long gone but on the other hand, there's this whole new world and the conditions are waay different than before. you got to experience everything from the perspective of a child which enters high-school. weird, isn't it? yeah hell it is. but that's exactly the point. I mean, some of us are only nineteen, we're still TEENagers man. how can anyone respect us as a really grown-up person? living on our own? ha ha ha, we do but does it really feel that way?  sometimes I'm standing in here, MY room. 25 m² and I think like wow and that's my home? in a way it feels so unrealistic. and the next day, again I feel so grown up, going to university, going out every night, doing cook-duels with friends. I really love it that way. although, however you have to study. a lot actually. but I mean, that's it. and if that's what I have to do to have this life, which is perfectly fine for me, well that's what I do.
I really do like it that way. it feels just right. like everything's finally in place. and there's much time left to get to know everything else of this whole new 'grown-up' part of life.